"But of Course. Yes! Excellent idea! Sounds great to me! I couldn't have said it better myself!"
Yes… I spent a lot of time trying desperately to be liked. I used to work overtime to gain the approval and acceptance of others, jump on the the bandwagon and go along with other people’s ridiculous programs, chose “the usual suspects” to hang out with, fell prey to the wrong influences and acted outside of my character – all in an effort to be liked and accepted. HOW RIDICULOUS!
It was because I was immature and did an din’t have an identity of my own. All of this energy spent to fit in was a vacant experience that always left me wanting. I never found the right crowd and never quite seemed to fit in. The ideas that I really held dear and my personal longings weren’t in line with those of my chosen friends. Because I knew I was different deep down inside I often found myself on the sidelines as an on-looker simply swept away by the events of the moment.
Now instead I’m…
“Appreciating and loving myself.”
Now I’ve learned to give myself love and appreciation for being exactly who I am. Like all humans, I have the need for approval, control, and safety and security. We can have these things, but we have to give up the need to either get them from other people or exercise them over others.
As a result of this realization, I have learned to give myself approval and appreciation and stop waiting for it from others. Later for that. I’m doing the best I can, I’m cool and I’m on the path. I’m learning to love myself more and more each day. Yes I have a lot of growing to do, and what’s the rush? I have all of eternity!
